Dear diary,
its been a tiring week, and its friday night, i'm depressed, i wanna cry, i don't know.
i had my economics test today, it was alright even though i didnt know how to do some questions. I told dad he SEEMED to take it ok but well.. i guess he didnt. well. he had a look at my essay just now and was so super angry with me. i dunno what the heck i did but he started yelling and screaming at me after a while.
he seemed to be extremely angry i was listening to music and MSNing. sigh, its friday night, i've had a few tests, some went ok, some not so ok, but i studied hard for them and he wont believe me. when did i lie? what did i do wrong? what is wrong with me? i told the truth when i did the tests, if they were hard, easy, medium, completely don't know how to do etc.
i did ok for my bio test, practical on cutting up a sheep's heart, and graded assignment. lowest was 70%. maybe its just not good enough. i don't know!!!!! i don't see much around me. i just feel hurt and pain.
well... he asked me a question and i answered back. i dunno wat it was but he slammed me on my bathroom door with the handle on me poor backbone. and it hurt like.. i dunno.. a lot. i almost cried. he also slammed my poor ibm x31 on the floor. its a miracle its alive now.
i don't know what is going on in his mind. is he result focused? i want to know.
Frankly, i think i'm rather depressed now, i hardly see mum, dad seems to be nagging me, i hardly talk to my brother. whats next? my dog runs away? i don't know, i don't want to know. i just want to know,- Where is God? i want comfort and peace.
luve
Ren
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